I should be asleep, I have to work tomorrow. But of course when I need to be sleeping I'm wide awake. Sometimes for hours. Frustrating.

This has been an interesting week. I have had the joy of making new friends and meeting up with old ones. I hung out with 2 girls from the church I'm visiting. Last year I avoided people at all costs and was very scared at the thought of being able to get close to people. There was (and lets be real, still is) a lot of fear of getting to know people as well as letting them get to know me. I desperately want to be loved and accepted but hide away in fear of being rejected and hurt. And tonight I reconnected with an old friend, my best nursing school friend, Julie!!! So gooooooood to talk and catch up and be honest and hear one another. Love that girl so much!

Me and Julie freshly graduated 3 years ago (YIKES, 3 years ago?!?!)

Another couple of highlights (and some can be counted as low and high):
*it is good to cry (and one day hopefully not by myself but with others)
*honest talk is hard as hell, but is good for the soul
*random gym guy asking me if I would do a work out with him (think I'm gonna flake on that one)
*its ok to call out of work when you're mentally exhausted (even if you are scared)

(now I'm finishing this in the wee hours of the morn) Whats better than a Friday? A payday Friday! Here's to two days of work left this week and none til next Tuesday!

Two fist pumps for new friends and old ones!