Can you say, FREAKING OUT!?? I have so much to do over the next few weeks in preparation for ICU. I am doing homework again...feeling like I'm back in school. Reading, studying, doing online classwork. And stressing. Do I know enough? Am I smart enough? Will I remember enough from school to get me through training? I feel so inadequate. Nurses are a class of over achievers, well I would say 95% of the time. I am a semi over achiever, not on the extreme side. I freak out when I think of what other people have already finished and I am just starting. This is beginning to look and feel just like school.

I found out that I will not be able to get all of my vacation hours in that are required to take. I cannot take any vacation while in training, and the deadline to use them is in December. I am working on it, because I will lose the money. I thought I could have it all in the bag with 10 days off. I wish I had just taken 2 weeks off. I didn't take into account the fact I am getting paid 12 hours for an online class, plus 8 or more hours of pay for classes. I am working on getting days off here and there at work, possibly today. I am praying that I get off today. Quite a pickle I have put myself in. Part of me is wanting to just not get paid for classes, but I'd rather have a few extra days off of work instead. So, I have 4 weeks to take off 57 hours of work...that's 1 1/2 weeks, folks!!! I'm slated to work full time the next 3 weeks plus the extra. Pray that I can get off the time, or its wasted money I do not get. Just another stressor added to the fact of preparing to change jobs.